Friday, January 29, 2010

black and white

i visited my friend beth in portland. the time was intense. it was restful, replenishing, chilly, stunning, sad, and productive. i took a day trip to seattle. it was the first time that i had ever gone on amtrak. i saw friends there, bought some sneakers, drank coffee and watched jean cocteau's beauty and the beast... again.
i read a book called nothing to be frightened of by julian barnes. in this book, he talks about his family, his agnosticism, and the nature of life and death. it sounds like it should be a very heavy tome, but barnes keeps it light and enjoyable, even while making the possibility of death, ultimate death, feel quite real. reading it, i felt a strange mixture of dread and delight. though it isn't really pleasant to think about not existing anymore, it is mildly comforting to know that somebody else is scared of it too...
i would rather think about these things and get a little sad about them than not think about them at all, or remain where i've been all my life-- in a sort of half-thought-out state of maybe-this-will-happen-ness. of course i have no idea what will happen, but to fully consider the possibilities feels important.
i have taken a short story i wrote called "human tenderness" and am making it into a graphic version, in other words a story with pictures. i started last night and i have the first two pages under my belt. i am using pencil, roller ball pen, and 3 colors of india ink: cherry red, turquoise, and sepia. the story is about a man who comes to pick up his friend for lunch and finds that the friend has killed himself.
today i took a walk to las salsas, a sort-of good mexican restaurant on san pedro. the air was cold and the sky was so, so blue. on my way home i saw a dog running in the road and i whistled to it. it stopped. i knelt down and made a kiss noise, but it didn't come over. i whistled a few more times. it didn't have a collar on. it looked young. it was black and white.

Friday, January 22, 2010

blerk

another remarkably bland, characteristically lukewarm san antonio review.

Thursday, January 14, 2010

hard bargain review

i did one of those unintentional benders last night.
i sat down to watch the russian film NIGHT WATCH with a glass of tequila and a beer.
before i knew it i was seeing double. or was that just the movie?
i woke up at 3:15 am all cotton-mouthed and dizzy.
though it was really cool to watch, i could not follow that movie. not a whit.
i might try again.
in the meantime, here's a review for the play i directed. the play actually happened, wow. i thought it would maybe happen, maybe not.

Saturday, January 02, 2010

zwahhh

i did make that cd for my brother after all, and gave it to him for xmas.
he seemed to appreciate it. he said he'd listen to it.
he pointed out that i forgot "coconut" by harry nilsson. he was right.
2010 feels good already, even though i got sick.
we went to rick and chris' house and there were cool people there sitting around talking and being naturally funny. rick and chris were making homemade pizza. all the ingredients for the pizzas were in little white bowls on the kitchen table. it was so picturesque, it looked like it should have been filmed.
at the turning of the hour we all went into the front yard with our drinks. they had veuve clicquot. we watched the fireworks over the tower of the americas. it was cold and there were two dogs running around. people were smoking and laughing, and no one shouted "happy new year!" -- how refreshing!
my family gave my boyfriend gifts for xmas. not only the gift of their kindness but actual presents. i saw my dad hugging him a little and saying something to him. it was like, wow. evolution.
it helps me to evolve when i see my family evolve.

Friday, January 01, 2010

wishes made truth

happy new year.
may prosperity
creativity
harmony
discovery
and
DYNAMIC ACTION
all be yours this year!